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And another begins... Hopefully not so dark this time. I am currently writing this from the computer room of our new home (well... we've been housed since Halloween, but the computer access didn't happen until recently). Apartments, but much nicer than any place I've really lived. But ya know the best part? We're no longer homeless... No, I'm dead serious. No one knows the trauma this has caused us, and as much as I'd like to update everyone on what's been happening for the past year, I still can't get myself to think about a lot of it without becoming extremely angry, or wanting to cry. But we're healing now, and although we're still struggling to get an income, things should be improving soon. I'm not holding my breath though... just taking one day at a time. Eventually, and probably little by little, I'll be doing little bits of writing on my experiences... I don't know yet what form they'll come in, but for my own health and sanity it needs to be released. Eventually I hope to educate people on the shit that's going on in this country concerning the lower class of citizens and how the homeless are treated. But still, how remarkably compassionate some can be can make up for others' cruelty. This also I plan to write about, in due time.
I need to look through my files and see what I can post here, but I have still been doing SOME art, though fighting with depression means I haven't done much in this year. But those who've followed me this long know I don't have much to show anyway. When our income situation is fixed though, I'll be getting back into drawing and sculpting. If I can get pictures of them, I can show some jewelry I've made as well. Right now the bulk of what I REALLY want to do is on hold until we get our stuff from storage, but I'll be posting a little here and there. As for the writing group, it's still on hold until is able to get back online (it's a bit of a long story, but once we get internet in our room, she'll be back).
And yes, we're still together We've been through so much shit, and although we get on each other's nerves at times, we can always work things out. I'm blessed to have her, that's for damned sure.
Alright, that's it for an update for now. Letting you all know that, as long as some other catastrophe doesn't happen, we're on our way to getting better and closer to a stable life, I'll be posting some kind of art at some point, and blah blah blah... We're still alive, and that's mainly what I wanted to say
I need to look through my files and see what I can post here, but I have still been doing SOME art, though fighting with depression means I haven't done much in this year. But those who've followed me this long know I don't have much to show anyway. When our income situation is fixed though, I'll be getting back into drawing and sculpting. If I can get pictures of them, I can show some jewelry I've made as well. Right now the bulk of what I REALLY want to do is on hold until we get our stuff from storage, but I'll be posting a little here and there. As for the writing group, it's still on hold until is able to get back online (it's a bit of a long story, but once we get internet in our room, she'll be back).
And yes, we're still together We've been through so much shit, and although we get on each other's nerves at times, we can always work things out. I'm blessed to have her, that's for damned sure.
Alright, that's it for an update for now. Letting you all know that, as long as some other catastrophe doesn't happen, we're on our way to getting better and closer to a stable life, I'll be posting some kind of art at some point, and blah blah blah... We're still alive, and that's mainly what I wanted to say
2:22
Hello everyone! I wanted to write a journal entry, as both an update to my followers, and as a way to give myself a chance to reflect on the year. Well then… This year was definitely one of the most difficult in my life. Despite so many things getting better, the semi-botched surgery of the previous December (which took half a year to mostly recover from) and the fracturing of my right ankle (which is still healing), has helped give the fibromyalgia a tyrannical dominance in my life. Like, I thought it was bad before, but now sometimes find myself wishing for those simpler times. But maybe I’ll be able to get back there… or better. Sometimes possible healing or other good is difficult to see, because I’m so mired in pain and fatigue for days, and it wears me down to the point of despair. This is part of the reason I haven’t been active lately. But Autumn and I got to spend this Christmas with my sister and her family, and it went so well that I feel somewhat revitalized. It’s clear
Distracted by Darkness (an update)
I've been struggling with a lot lately; the move took a lot out of me physically and emotionally, and I found it increasingly difficult to keep working on my poetry. My partner is also doing worse physically, and our cat has been much more needy after losing her friends. So along with trying to devote more time to them, I also started feeling that 'imposter syndrome' and one night I just couldn't get myself to post anything. Then I was unable to get my meds refilled and coming down off of them has been hell (nausea, headaches, and dizziness on top of the regular (now unmedicated) amount of pain I'm in, I've been having a difficult time coping and keeping in touch with everyone). I think I'm finally starting to feel better (on the no meds front), but now I feel lost again and it may take awhile for me to get my (life) bearings back. I haven't given up on poetry by any means, but I wanna start focusing more on my game and story projects. Life is still anything but fair, but they seem
Update... sort of
For those that haven't heard, @AutumnDani and I are having to move by the end of October (or sooner, if things continue as they are). I'm also trying to get SSI, but that's a maze in and of itself... This is a scary situation for us, and I haven't wanted to talk about it because I can't get through an explanation without crying. I know what being homeless is like, and from those experiences I know we won't survive that in our current state. I feel like someone cast "Doom" on us (from the Final Fantasy series; when the timer runs out, you die). I know that sounds funny or over dramatic... I hope it is. I hope my therapist is right, that we're capable of getting through this. At this point I have no choice but to try, and do whatever I can, however little it may seem. Because when all is said and done... I'm a warrior. If I can't improve my situation and I'm fated to die (which we all are, at some point), I'm at least gonna die with some fucking honor... at that means fighting until the
Art Feature
I've really been wanting to do an art feature while my Core is still active; unfortunately it's turning out to be far more exhausting than I realized it would be. When my health or situation improves though, I'd like to do something weekly. But for now, I hope you enjoy this handful of art at least as much as I. To Kill a Concpiracy by @AutumnDani Dark and cryptic, it leaves the mind to wonder (and wander) about its meaning. Leannan Sidhe - Visual Version by @Barosus A beautiful tribute to Inspiration, but reminds us that thorns can make us bleed if we're not careful. In Absentia by @discontentbeauty I feel my own feelings of being trapped, reflected in this poem. Ophelia 3 by @LindArtz I love mer-related art, but this also feels very serene, as well as haunting. Golden Orbs by @LyraMorgan The emotion (or perhaps energy) captured in this is great, and the simplicity of four colors really appeals to me. Bernie the Barn Cat by @Rapid-Star I really like
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